3 December 2007: Another Setback

Today my dad and I went to the hospital.  I was having surgery to install a grommet in my left ear canal, as the tumour impairs my hearing.  Everything went well, and I sat in the recovery room waiting for the anaesthetic to wear off.  The surgeon came to talk to me and I saw from his facial expression that the news was bad.  He told me that the tumour may have spread into my ear.  He left and I sat with tears running down my face.  A nurse wheeled me into the waiting room, back to my dad.  I hate crying around my family as I feel like I should be strong – I don’t want a sympathy vote all the time.  And I don’t want people to help me, I want them to help raise funds and awareness.  But I was so shocked by the news, I sat sobbing in my dad’s arms.  He tried to be positive and reassure me that things would be OK.